Last week was one of those autism is in the driver seat kind of weeks, so I lashed out a bit. I gave you all a list of the sometimes insensitive, rude, and ignorant comments said to me as a mother of an autistic child advising you on what NOT to say to mother of a child with autism. I won't apologize for my words because, well, last week I needed to say them and it felt good....real good. This week, however, I have thrown autism in the trunk and can barely hear it's protests to move back in the driver's seat next to me. Now that autism has been somewhat silenced, I realize that it wasn't fair to tell everyone what NOT to say to a parent of a child with autism, if I don't give some advice on what TO say.
I have to be AWEnest, it was harder to remember some of the kind things I have heard over the years. That's not because there weren't hundreds of beautiful, kind, and encouraging words said to Ryan and to me, since we first heard The A Word, but, as a mother who loves so deeply, so viscerally, it tends to be the hurtful, unkind words that leave a permanent, deep tissue kind of scar that takes so much longer to heal.
Just like every child is affected differently by an autism diagnosis, each parent is also affected differently. A comment that I believe is kind and encouraging, another parent may see as rude and condescending. Needless to say, I can't give you an exhaustive list since every situation is different, however, I have come up with a few things people have said to me over the years that clearly left a mark and not a scar. So, this is a list of things TO say to a parent loving a child with autism that made me smile and want to hug them rather than hit them or scratch their eyes out. The one thing to remember, regardless of the child or the parent, is to always be accepting, be aware, and be kind.
1. "Wow! I can't believe how far he has come!" Even if the distance from where he was to where he is seems miniscule to you, chances are it is a HUGE, expansive distance to my son and me. Commenting on progress is a beautiful thing to say, but, only if you mean it. Only if you really see progress or change. We mothers are like dogs, we can smell your fear in an off handed, don't know what else to say remark. So if you do believe it, then say it. Tell us. And be prepared to be hugged.
2. "He is so good at....(insert anything here)." Whether it's a perfect Jim Carrey imitation, how long he can sit watching the same episode of Thomas the Tank Engine and recite every word perfectly, or his ability to memorize all the details of every earthquake in California's history, point it out. Point out the positives. See the positives. We see it. We know it. We love when you do too.
4. "Is there anything I can do to help?" Asking this question in the middle of aisle 6 in the busy, loud grocery store where our child is currently having a huge sensory meltdown as we try to calm him down and discreetly scooch the glass shards from the spaghetti jar that just missed your head under our cart, rather than staring at what you believe may be an "undisciplined child" having a temper tantrum, may possibly make you the hero in a blog story that goes viral on social media three hours after you get home from the grocery store. We know people are staring. We know people are judging. We know people don't get it. That's why those eight simple words from just one person are beautiful. Oh, and sorry about the spaghetti sauce on your new shoes.
5. "He feels so much, doesn't he?" Yep, I love you and I'm going to get us matching BFF necklaces. Today. Now. This is a kind, compassionate and understanding way to say that when you see our child crying easily, melting down regularly, and being terribly inflexible, you are letting us know that you recognize that there may be more than meets the eye and that our child is not bad, and neither are we.
7. "He really loves you." Yes he does. There is such a misconception that children with autism don't feel love, that their emotions are too bogged down by autism to "feel", but, believe me, they feel love, they know love, they give love. And on days when it's hard, on days where we have lost our patience, raised our voice and dried countless tears, we don't feel very loveable, so, it's great when others see and feel that love too. We know that our child loves us like no other and although that love may look "different" it is never to be trivialized or minimized.
8. "I wonder what he is thinking?" O.M.G. If you only know how many times a day I have wondered the VERY same thing. "If only I could get inside his head", "If I only knew what he was feeling", "If only he would let me in" has crossed every parent's mind countless times. Knowing that you take the time to wonder too, well, you have just gone up higher in rank on the Favorites list on my iPhone.
9. "What is autism and why do they call it a spectrum?" Yes, maybe we are tired of talking about The A Word, maybe we want people to see past autism and just see our child, but, we will never turn down an opportunity to educate someone about our child and debunk the "He doesn't act like Rainman" myth. So please, ask away.
11. "I brought wine." Even though you might not fully understand what loving a child with autism is like, the fact that you are here, on our door step, holding a bottle of wine and trying to understand, well, there are no words to express our gratitude. We love that you feel like we are in this together, so grab two glasses while I get the bottle opener.
12. "I have Velveeta Shells and Cheese (or whatever the one and only type of food is that child will eat)." You win. Game over.
When trying to decide what you SHOULD say, keep in mind that these children and adults with autism may have severe language deficits and they may not be able to SAY a word, but, that does not mean they aren't communicating with you. Take their lead. Maybe no words are necessary. Maybe you don't have to SAY anything. Maybe it's just a kind smile, a door held, making eye contact with us or a kind "hello" to our child. However, if we initiate the conversation, if we say the words, "My son has autism" just give us a knowing look, a kind smile and say, "How is he doing?". We may say "fine" or we may break into a 10 minute long discussion about how far he has come and how far we know he will go. Whichever it is, trust me when I SAY, we will always remember that you asked.